Cogito Ergo

I used to write about politics a lot.  I had to make the conscious decision to stop because it was just so negative.  We are talking six or seven years ago when congress was just regular useless.  I thought it was bad then nut noooooooo.  It turns out that the shit just started storming. How did we get here?  Donald Fucking Trump went from firing Gary Busey to picking 2 Supreme Court Justices.  That's completely ridiculous, yet, here we are. V for Vendetta is one of my favorite movies and in one of the opening scenes he railed the entire nation of England for shutting the fuck up while things went completely to shit.  Even though I've watched that part 100 times, here I sat, watching the world burn. This is how it happens.  The indifference of good men and all that shit. It's so seductive.  Just keep your head down and keep plugging away.  Then you look up one day and the government is kidnapping children.  Then you log on to twitter and Stacey Dash is defending tha

After LeBron James and the Cleveland Cavaliers were swept by the Golden State Warriors my timeline was predictably filled with people arguing that LeBron couldn't possibly be the greatest of all time because he didn't fart rainbows or just will his team to victory. One of the most eyebrow raising post was of Michael Jordan celebrating another title.  I don't even remember what Mike was going on about but it made remember remember something about Mike that I had forgotten in all the Lebron comparisons: Mike was a complete asshole. Then, I got to thinking about Mike's heir (air) to the title of best in the game, Kobe.  Kobe wasn't brimming with personality but one thing that we should all agree on, is that he was also a fucking dick.  I specifically remember him ignoring Chris Rock on the sidelines like he was too focused to be funny. Then there's LeBron James.  Even when he has a team full of underachievers he has the nerve to pick up his purse and leave ra

I remember wanting to die.  I didn't want to kill myself per se, I just wished that I could just go the fuck away.  I was a young, skinny teenager that wasn't looking forward to anything outside of video games.  What kind of life is that? But teenage life is always stupid.  When the lead actor is phoning it in, the play sucks.  That is teenage life in America.  I wish I could say that only teenagers go dark enough to want to die but we all know that is not true.  Life gets so much harder for people that dare to be an adult. As an adult, I get reminded of my younger years because shit still gets dark.  When I feel that kind of hopelessness, I still remember the fire that gets lit inside of me.  My ability to say "Fuck all of these people." is my super power.  It is a necessary tool for me.  When all the love I try to spread around begins to fail that flaming hatred for those that I let push me there always comes back.  Somehow, it brings the rest of me with it. I

If you guys know me, you know that I love the sauce.  The potion has been my greatest unwinding mechanism for sixteen plus years now.  With that being said, I come to you with a heavy heart because I have to inform you that I've nearly stopped drinking. I didn't do this for any of the normal reasons niggas get on the wagon.  It wasn't for the kids or because I love my liver (sorry liver) but I did it for the same reason I keep finding myself buying maxi pads; to shut my wife up. Now, with quiet wife, I've made few reflections on this journey: 1)  This is stupid but necessary, yet, also stupid.  You know what's better after a few drinks?  Everything.  Well, maybe not everything.  Drinking and basketball are uneasy bedfellows but you get the point.  When you do these things while dead sober, it turns out they are a little bit harder to enjoy.  For some reason I have walked in to a room that was clearly labeled "not as fun as the room next door" and I&#

I have two daughters and a wife and them niggas keep on eating.  Like, every day more food. My wife works but in 2017 it ain't gonna be enough money to keep everyone in food, clothing and shelter if we have another baby.  We are on some Cold Equation  shit.  If we have another baby, one of us is going out the airlock and since that's probably gonna be me, it was time for the big snip. The very idea of a vasectomy is conflicting.  There's the comfort of not having another baby and the disappointment of not being able to have another baby.   I love babies.  I have become one of those dads that will hold your baby and give them goo goo eyes.  Back when i was a young man, I wouldn't go near them.  Until they could walk and maybe take a 3 foot drop like a champ, I wouldn't touch them.  Now, I live off baby smiles.  Partly because my family eats all the damned food, but I digress.  I really wouldn't mind having another if we could afford it especially with

I wonder what I was doing.  Was I having that first cup of coffee on a Monday?  Was I celebrating the fact that I didn't get owned again in a quick Overwatch match when I didn't even pick D.Va but experimented with Doomfist because black is beautiful?  Or, was I at work wondering why I don't just ignore the people and work on my blog?  Dear world, where was I the last time Charlie Rose whipped his dick out for no reason? How could I have been so naive?  I'm aware that old ass White dudes ain't worth shit but seriously, Charlie Rose!?  He speaks so well. (Doesn't feel good when it's pointed at you, does it White people?) As much as I would love to believe this is a white man's issue, it is not.  This is an issue that men across all cultures seem to be grappling with.  Masculinity has become some utter bullshit and we are going to have to put a stop to it. Masculinity is the reason why black men shoot at each other over FaceBook posts.  Masculinity is